Music : Neji vs Hinata from Naruto OST 2

Sighs .. how long had i not been into here ..
Anyway i had found a job .. a full time one this time .. (Draftman) the pay is little but i oso nv do much ...
these few weeks i have been into alot of troubles.. and i think i am breaking down soon .. things had not been going well for me
i tot i might die but in the end it wont kill me .. i vomit blood out i tot i had some incurable illness and will die but it is a mixture of blood and water .. went to see the doctor , well nothing happened ,just some cuts inside and stomach is not well these few weeks
how to stop my thinking ? i kept thinking of bad things , i am not like wat i used to be .. i cant be cheerful and stuff . pressure from job oso killing me .. I always scare i cant do well , makes mistakes , get scolding from others and stuff
SIGHS .. when i needed help who can i go to? i oso not in my stable mind , i panic very easy these weeks , have been thinking of the future and now . Army Resevice also coming too .. I really dont wan to go but there is no choice......
it is just everything going wrong , I got framed at games , got screwed at work , got cheated at winning , got scolded at home , left alone most of the times ... i only meet lyner , gene most of the time , they oso have their own problems..
to my dear , there are alot of times that i wish that you are by my side when i needed you and i am sorry   ¶ 10:19 PM